I honestly just forget.
Because being lonely can be better, or at least easier than bruising. But to be truthful, I haven’t felt this lonely in some time. Perhaps because once you’ve thrown all your eggs into one basket there is nothing else.
Sure, I have big goals. I have this unstoppable drive and consistent enthusiasm for what I do. But some days I’m a little impatient, I’m forgetful, I’m stubborn and somewhere along the way I lost my heart.
I lost my courage for nights like this, with an ache in my chest just because I remember the way you used to smile at me. But those closest to me deserve better, and it’s time I accept that sometimes you’re going to lose - that there are some things you just cannot fix, no matter the lengths you travel to refine a broken thread.
But when you find something that is worthy of a handfull of try’s, you’ve probably found something worthy of a battle loss and a broken heart. Remember it at it’s best.